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A Letter to My Younger Self – Dear Me


Dear Me,

You are 18 years old and you have the world ahead of you. You are a bright young woman who is searching and wondering what life will be like in  your20’s, 30’s, 40’s and 50’s. well I am 51 next month and I want to tell you that you are going to make. It is going to be rocky and painful but you are going to make.

God loves you with an everlasting love. The enemy is going to try and take you out but it will not work, because God has your name written on the palm of his hand.

Continue with your passion for books and reading because it is going to serve you well. One important thing my dear, develop a relationship with The Holy Spirit, love your bible because that book will literally save your life. Read it, digest it, memorise it. Do not listen to anyone who says God is not real, trust me he is very very real. I have seen and experienced things and if it was not for the very present help of God I would be gone. Trust me younger woman, God is real and he has your back even though it may not feel like it but he does.

Oh my goodness if you only knew how much he loves you, oh my! He is going to lead you and guide you through every fiery trial, but you know what you are going to come as pure gold.

Younger me, don’t let your fears, low self esteem or insecurities stop you. I know you don’t have any positive role models at the moment but hang in there because better is coming. You are going to grow into a woman who has a tangible experience with God and when feel like giving up he won’t let you. When you experience shame and embarrassment, stand tall. When you are called evil names remember what God calls you and tells you who you are and what you mean to him. When you cry at 3am in the morning remember those tears are silent prayers to Father God. When you are abandoned remember you are accepted in heavenly places with Christ Jesus. Yes whatever poison is thrown at you Jesus has the antidote.

The Holy Spirit in you is a treasure in an earthen vessel, an earthen vessel of honour and high esteem. You are beautiful no matter what anyone else says. You are a great mother no matter what anyone else says, you are a loyal wife no matters what anyone else says.

Be encouraged sweet one because the world will know of the great gift that the Father himself has placed inside of you. It doesn’t look like must now, just remember mining a diamond is a long process but when the process is done and from what ever angle you see the diamond all you will see is something perfectly cut by the hand of God and as the light reflects on it from different angles all you will see is beauty. You are beautiful, you may not always feel like it, but you are.

Be encouraged because your expected end will be great, so be faithful to what  God will put in your hand. You will be taken advantage off, but remain faithful. Your future is so bright, I am excited for you.

All my love Me at 50 👏🙏😘

Dear Father God Letters ~ A prayer for the person contemplating suicide.

  

  
Dear Father God, 

I lift up to you the hearts of those contemplating  suicide at this moment. Lord where they have given up on life divinely show them that they have everything to live for. Where they feel rejected, betrayed and hurt show them the power of forgiveness and the awesome love that you have for them.

Father, where they feel that there life is backed up against the wall and there is no way out, divinely show them a way out. I pray father that you would divinely overshadow them with your love as you overshadowed Mary the mother of Jesus. Ignite their broken heart with hope, faith and trust in you.

Where the enemy has lied to them about their situation I pray father that you would superimpose that lie with the truth and beauty of who they are in you and that they have everything to live for.

Make a way for them Father where there appears to be no way, intervene in their situation in a supernatural way and give them a testimony. Ignite their heart with something to live for and show them father that taking their own life is not the answer.

I release ministering angel to them to comfort and strengthen during this time of need.

In Jesus Name. Amen

You are the Lord’s Candle ~ Someone Special.

Proverbs 20:27 ~ “The spirit of man is the candle of the Lord……..” KJV

Psalms 139:13 ~ 14  “For you formed my inward parts; you covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are your works” NKJ

Our spirit is God’s candle.  He uses us to shine so when others see us they see Him. We are a reflection of His light on the earth. In fact He uses us to burn brightly.

Don’t ever believe that there is nothing good about you, you were created for a divine purpose. There is some thing unique about you that no one else has on the earth. It’s your uniqueness that God uses to burn brightly. Do not compare yourself to anyone because to do this would be to devalue whom you were uniquely created to be. The bible declares that God’s works are marvelous and that my beloved means you are marvellous. Please do not let anyone tell you any differently.

Years ago I never saw any value in who I was, I thought no one would want to hear what I had to say. But I was taken on a special journey by God and he showed me what he thought of me and how beautiful I am. It’s just that my circumstances had masked who I was so I could not see my own uniqueness.

Dear one, I just want to encourage you  not to define yourself by what you have gone through in life but define yourself by God’s originally intention for you. You are a wonderful creation of The Most High God carefully formed and crafted in your mother’s womb. The mere fact that you are alive to read what I am writing is a testimony in itself.

Dear one, May the Lord bless you and keep you and continue to grant you the peace that passes all understanding. I pray that you will come to know how marvelous you truly are.

Your In-Laws Need Boundaries


I was ministering somewhere a few days ago and the issue of interfering inlaws came up. It is really really important that we know and understand that they cannot dictate the relationships their children have with their spouses.

Those of you that are thinking of getting married please begin to discuss it and put boundaries in place, especially if you feel your partner is a mama’s boy or daddy’s girl, because if you do not your inlaws may start to interfere (if they are not doing so already) and poison your relationship.

The control is ungodly. Sir, stand up and protect your wife to be/ girlfriend from your mothers’ onslaught. You can see what your mother is doing is not right but you will not defend the woman you call special. Young lady if he cannot defend you in front of his mother, will he defend you at all and is this the start of things to come when you both get married?

The bible clearly states in Gensis 2:24 “Therefore shall a man leave his father and mother and shall cleave unto his wife, and they shall be one flesh.” 

Why is it significant that the man clearly leaves, even though the woman must leave also? The man is the foundation of his family. He is the main cornerstone that his wife and children will come to and if the man is too caught up with his mother then his family malfunctions and the foundation is shaken. You are not only to leave physically, but also emotionally and spiritually and you must start to cleave. Pray about this and ask God for wisdom on how to create parental boundaries. It may be difficult but it can be done.

Gentleman when you ask a woman to marry you do you actually know what you are asking? Do you know and understand your God given responsibilities? Your God given responsibilities towards your wife does not involve your mother. Yes the bible says that we are to honour our mother and father, that is very important but it does not say honour them at the expense of your wife. Remember God takes the position of a wife  very seriously. He compares marriage with Christ loving his church, the bride. Christ loved the church and gave himself for it. Jesus did not allow Mary his mother, to interfere with his relationship with his bride and what he was assigned to do for his bride.

Ladies in your rush to be married please make a careful note of the relationship your husband to be has with his mother. If there are clear boundaries in place then it’s good, but if not and she feels it is ok to dictate to her son and place ungodly influence over his choices then watch out. If you are having red flags or the Holy Sprit is nudging you about something then step back, pray for direction and ask questions.

If you remain silent then you will not have a happy home and instead of having a 3 fold cord ( you, your husband and the Holy Spirit) that is not easily broken, you will have a 4 fold cord that will break any minute now.

The damage done by interfering inlaws is not spoken about much in church but I want to encourage you to be prayerful and watchful in this area. Let the Holy Spirit be your teacher and do not enter a marriage with someone because you are desperate to be married.  Marriage is not the wedding day, marriage is the beginning of the rest of your life. Cleaving is a life long journey which must be protected.

I heard of a woman, who happens to be in church leadership, who tried to hinder the marriage of her son to a beautiful christian young woman, because she was worried about who was going to look after her and keep her company. When I heard that story I felt sorry for her other adult unmarried children. It is so selfish and manipulative on her part.

Naomi in the book of Ruth was a beautiful mother in law who respected her daughters in law, so much so that they did not want to leave her. There are mothers in law that have a beautiful spirit and if they see anything go wrong in the lives of their children’s marriage, they will take the time out to pray. They honour the spouse their children has selected. I honour such inlaws. If you have inlaws like this treasure them, love them and appreciate them.

What I have stated works both ways. There are some women who cling to their parents and will not allow their husband to lead. Leave and cleave to your husband, do not be a stumbling block.

Dear heart, what does God say about marriage? If your inlaws are disrespecting what God says about your own marriage, then you need to take steps to do something about it. I appreciate that some cultures place a high value on in-laws and their input in their children’s marriage. Their input has proven to be detrimental in many cases. Your spouse is not a tool for your in-laws to abuse as they please. Please stand up for your spouse because the two of you have become one. You do not become one with your parents.

Please share your feelings about this in the comments section.

Pursued by HIS Love

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” For God is my witness how I Long for and pursue you all with love, in the tender mercy of Christ Jesus (Himself) ~ Philippians 1:8 (amplified bible)

I came across this verse a few months ago whilst I was reading a book about the Apostle Paul. Paul had a love and strong affection for the people of Philippi. He longed for them, he longed to see them and he long to hear from them.

The Philippian church had a love toward God that extended to each other, other Christians and ministers of the gospel. They expressed it in their actions and with their heart.

Women love to be pursued by someone they love, it makes them feel wanted, appreciated, desired. But wait a minute…… let’s think for a moment,  God himself is pursuing us. At times in life we look for and pursue love and acceptance in the wrong places and while we are doing this He is pursuing us to show us His love.

Father God loves you with an everlasting love, let me write that again, Father God Loves you with an everlasting love. His love is pursuing you. Stop for a moment and tell him ” Father I receive your love, Father I accept your love”. Just think the one who created the trees, the sun, the moon and stars loves you.

1 Peter 5:7 ( amplified bible) says ” Casting the whole of your care (all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all) on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares for you watchfully”. Read that verse again …….slowly. Isn’t it beautiful.

Dear Heart, the love of Father God is concerned about everything about you and his love is pursuing you. Stand still long enough to receive it.

Heart to Heart: I had a stutter ~ I have a voice

  

When I was much younger I had a stutter and it caused me to be very shy. It was awful because I knew what I wanted to say but the words would not come out. The emojo depicts how I use to feel when I had to speak in public.

I remember  a particular teacher in secondary school would asked everyone to read out loud during the english class and I would be sweating because of the stutter I had. But I did it anyway.

My self confidence was affected and it caused me to withdraw into the world of books and reading which I loved. I think I read every biography in the library at that time. During the holidays I would go and sit in the library and read. I loved it there and still do.

My stutter slowly disappeared as I grew older and it only affects me now if I am really tired or stressed. But I did not allow it to hinder my quest for knowledge in the things I was interested in. One thing that encouraged me was when I found out that Moses in the bible had a speech impediment but God used him to deliver the children of Israel out of Egypt.  I realised that I have a voice to encourage people. God has taken my voice and used it to bring comfort to hurting hearts over the years.

I am so excited that I have two blogs. The other is www.jennyallensecretplace.wordpress.com. My blogs have been a place of great expression for me and I am grateful to Father God for this forum. My beginnings on my blogs may be small but my latter end will be great, because Father God has given me a voice that is perfect to him, stutter and all. 

I am also grateful to you dear reader for taking some of your precious time to read my blogs. I pray that Father God would continue to use my voice to bless and encourage you.         

  

You are not Alone.

  
I remember during a very difficult period many years ago I felt so alone and isolated. My main comfort and still is, my bible. Oh my goodness, what would my life be like without this precious book. I have read it, listen to it on tape, CD, MP3 and YouTube. My bible has been my lifeline. 

I have highlighted, written all over it, drawn in it and some of the pages have dried tears stains on it. I love my bible. It has become a precious friend. If I need to find out about something I go straight to it and study it to find an answer. When I needed comfort I read the Psalms. If I  needed reassurance of who I was and am I read Ephesians. If I needed wisdom I read proverbs etc etc.

Sorry I got carried away there, back to my main point. During that difficult period I was reading Hebrews and I came across the latter part of Hebrews 13:5 and verse 6. I read it in the amplified bible and it blew me away. It says

……. For he (God) Himself has said, I will not in anyway fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. (I will) not, (I will) not, (I will) not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake you nor let (you) down ( relax my hold on you)! (Assuredly not).

” So we take comfort and are encouraged and confidently and boldly say, The Lord is my Helper; I will not be seized with alarm ( I will not fear or dread or be terrified). What can man do to me?”

This brought such a comfort to me and is one of my favourite bible verses. The creator of the heavens and the earth encouraged me by saying he will not leave me helpless or forsake me. The deflated ballon of my heart began to inflate with boldness and renewed strength.

Dear Heart allow these precious verses to put courage back into your heart and remind you that you are not alone. You have not been forsaken and you have not been overlooked because He who created the universe is watching over you carefully and cares for you lovingly. 

  

Dear Father God Letters ~ A Prayer for Domestic Violence Victims 

Dear Father God,

I just pray and lift up to you any victims of domestic violence who are reading this prayer. Lord you know the shame and guilt that they feel. How hurt and stripped they feel of their dignity and self esteem. Father by your loving touch start a new work in their heart and mind. Bring about total restoration to everything they have lost and valued. 

Restore their confidence, their sense of self worth. Jesus you are touched by the feeling of their infirmity and pain. Father God bring them to a place of safety in the heart and mind. Touch them In their inner most being where they need a special touch from you. Give them the courage they need to move out of the situation they are in.

Lord from this experience show them how to use it as a stepping stone to touch others who have been in a similar situation and to help them move on with their lives, In Jesus Name Amen.

  

What ever you do…….Keep walking

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I remember a few years ago I did a sponsored 8 mile walk to raise money for Haiti that had been hit by a devastating hurricane. Around the seven mile mark I wanted to stop because my feet hurt and I was tired. My friend who was walking with me said “whatever you do just keep walking, we do not have far to go.” The reward at the end was worth the pain my feet were experiencing at that moment.

What goal or vision do you currently have that makes you feel like giving up? Please don’t,  just keep walking towards you goal. Push through the pain and keep moving. The tears and heartache you are experiencing now will be worth it in the end.

What would have happened if Oprah gave up when she was told that she is not television material ?  That statement must have hurt her but she just kept walking and looked what she walked into. The same goes for Steve Jobs the founder of Apple, Bill Gates the founder of Microsoft and Richard Branson the founder of Virgin. They were all told they could not do what they eventually did.

Don’t Listen to any negatives, block them out.  You are in great company so just keep walking!

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Life’s Unanswered Questions 

  

I was reading my daily devotional by Joyce Meyer a few days ago and she was sharing on life’s unanswered questions. 

I am sure each person has a series of unanswered questions about their life or situations. Why did I have to go through that pain? I thought that person was my friend? I trusted that person why did they turn around and betray me? The list goes on.

I have a series of unanswered questions about a situation I faced over many years and I still have no answers and maybe I will never get an answer. But what I have done is taken the lessons I have learnt through it and used it for good to better myself and encourage others. I have refused to allow it to cast a shadow over who God created me to be or on my journey to living a great life. Yes I have been asking God questions about it but after sometime time I stopped asking because it was eroding my life journey and I was becoming bitter. I have one life to live and I intend to enjoy it.

What unanswered questions do you have? Is the situation still casting a shadow over your life? What steps are you planning to take to let it go and move on? I am not judging anyone here I just want to encourage you to change the path of your life by choosing to be happy and to not allow what happened to you to chain you to a painful past.

Choose today dear heart to let the questions go and start living! 

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