Heart of Refuge

Unveiling The Hidden Beauty Of Your Heart

Month: August 2014

Unveil Your Heart

Life can throw so many things at us that it can cause us to veil or close our heart. People hurt us, people tell lies on us, we experience the pain of broken relationships and the list goes on and on.

When we close our heart we lock in the pain and lock out healing, restoration and love. The thing that we want is on the outside and the thing we do not want is inside of us. A switch needs to take place.

Unveiling your heart can be a difficult thing because you become afraid of getting hurt again or trusting again. But we have to take that step so that the pain in our heart does not lead to an emotional infection and damage every relationship we have.

I had trouble unveiling my heart to anyone. I was too afraid to release what was inside even though it was infecting me. I went to church and said and did all the right things but my heart was still hurting. Church is a good place to hide, just smile and say “Praise The Lord” or you go to work and pretend that your whole life is great. How many of us do this? I know it’s not just me. How many of us can be honest with ourself and just say I am tired of pretending, I just want to unveil my heart.

Having an outlet to release your pain is important. Beside your personal devotion or prayer time, Do you have a trusted friend that you can start the unveiling process with? Have you considered counselling? The pain you carry in your heart can hinder you from becoming all that God wants you to be because the plans that he has for you are good ones and the love he has for you is beautiful. Do not let your past rob you of a bright future. You do not have to pretend anymore. Seek help and support and let go.

There is so much beauty in you but the world cannot see it because it is hidden behind your pain. Your beauty has been eclipsed. You have a God given gift that the world needs. Your smile is needed, your touch is needed, your encouragements are needed, your friendship is needed, your love is needed. Do not deny the world of your gift, we need it, we need you!

My Brother’s Laughter

My brother was so funny he made me laugh so much with his crazy singing and corny jokes. Hilarious! He use to call me on the phone just to make me laugh and I miss that so much.

Sadly he died on 6th November 2012 aged 46 years old. When My younger brother called me and told me the news it felt like I was hit by a lorry and beat up by Mike Tyson all at once. The pain of my heart was excruciating and I felt numb. It was a numbness that I cannot describe.

One of the many things that helped to sooth my broken heart was the laughter we always shared. He use to beg me to stop reminding him of our childhood escapades as he was literally crying down the phone with laughter.

One of the last things we did together was pray and sing the hymn ” Abide with me”. I prayed for him and as I was praying I heard him crying down the phone. When I finished he said that my prayer was so beautiful.

Rest in peace my David and thank you for the laughter. Xx

Withered Hearts

During a time of personal devotion I was reading Matthew 12:9-13 from the bible. Its the story of a man with a withered (deformed) hand. This man sat in the temple whilst Jesus was teaching and Jesus called him forward to bring healing to him. This took place in the midst of Pharisees who dared Jesus to heal him. After a few choice words to the Pharisees Jesus brought restoration to the man’s hand.

On further study some historians believed that this man’s trade was that of a plasterer or bricklayer and his hand became damaged as a result of his work. I believe that his inability to work was not the only thing that was affected, but his self esteem as a provider for his family had withered, his relationship with his wife may have been affected and how would his friends and the local community had viewed him?

I have been in situations where life circumstances and situations caused the dreams of my heart to become withered. It affected my self esteem so badly that I just wanted to give up. People pointed their finger at me and laughed and told so many lies on me that I had to wonder if it was really me they were talking about. It was a crushing experience that caused me to recoil and hide in the cocoon I had made for myself. My heart became withered.

However in my cocoon God kept sending me people who watered my hurting heart. He used them to touch me and show me his love. I very slowly came out of the cocoon and had gathered enough strength to give my withered heart to Jesus. The man in temple might have viewed Jesus as his last hope and chance for healing and in front of everyone extended his disfigurement to Jesus and in taking that step of faith he experienced healing and restoration. I too took a step of faith and lifted my disfigurement to Jesus and I have experienced healing and restoration for my withered heart.

My journey may not be your journey but take a step my friend, kneel down and pray or find someone who you can trust with your bruised heart. Some people may want you to keep your disfigurement hidden because it suits them or you may feel that it is too shameful to bring to light. This man in the temple took a step of faith and that step lead him to his miracle. Dear reader take a step of faith and allow your withered heart to gain strength and begin to beat again to the beautiful music of life.

 

PRAYER

Lord, I pray for the person reading this blog. Touch their withered heart, minister to the pain they may be feeling at this moment. Bring healing to them and give them the strength and understanding to know that they are loved and appreciated. Ignite the passion and dreams that they have in their heart. Embrace them in your love. Amen

 

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